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Wow, its been ages, and i thot i mite just drop by to say hello

I almost forgot the password to this blog.

How time flies.. We are all 20 this year. and my one year anniversary in brisbane is gng to come soon.. How dreadful it was for the first few mths, but its getting much better as time goes by.

To keep u guys updated, Melissa Pok is coming to Brisbane on the 2th April haha how excited can i get! YAHOO! finally some one really really familiar is coming over here to visit this boring place haha. Hope i did not chase Melissa away. oh well. really hope that i will be able to accompany her and handle my mid sem at the same time. counting down to the day that she comes.

I am gng to find part time job to keep my allowance going, think this time my dad has sent a huge amt of money just to pay for my sister's PR application fees and also of cuz.. my horrible, expensive, not worth it, school fees. AUD8000 what can i say? i prob take a few years to pay back my parents the money. I wonder how am i going to repay them back properly. Do they want me to repay in full? Can i repay by being filial? ok talking nonsense now...

Alright Miss Poise, hope u are getting along fine( without me of cuz..) hee hee.. take care K/

Claudia Tan--> hope u are dng fine.. where's my letter dude?

Shuying--> dunno what/where are u now, hope u are coping well with studies, and ur.. new found rship??? hee hee

Wen

It's been ages since anyfive bothered enough about this REUNION - blog. really. Sad isn't it? But i guess everyfive were awfully busy. yes? including "poise.".

So, "poise." decided to do something about it.

(Oh she added a subtitle anyway, it says "True Friends are the Family We Choose" -Audrey Hepburn, true isnt it?)

*been away for a while doing some reading...*

im late! got to go practice for dance now! i'll be back tonight. :)

pok: "Opportunities don't often come along. So, when they do, you have to grab them." - A.H


luv
poise aka rox

hey babes!! i'm so sorry for this VERY super late posts...been super caught up with school n like haf no times for anything, just alot of stress n reports n deadlines n late nights in temasek polytechnic :x

wen!! it was great to see u back in singapore, haha how we met so coincidentally at bishan bus stop for tt short while, but nvetheless, i just felt really happy! i missed u so muchies! now i've to wait till dunno when den will meet u again

shuying!! hey girl!! relax for awhile, catch a breather n take a JESUS break! ;) we all need it! everyone runs dry after awhile, esp when work n all is piling up like mad, we hafta meet deadlines in school, we got super alot of curriculum activites n other committments n still hafta be an example to our siblings, a good daughter at home, and esp a spiritual leader to the younger ones...n then our energy n fire just gradually diminishes...hmmm, but that's when need God to fill us even more! :) it's alright to take short breaks, liek not going youth service like once in awhile, cos we can still enter His presence by just listening to worship songs or just reading His word or simply praying. 5mins? 15 mins? 1/2hr? just talk to Him n tell Him how you're feeling, cos He sees u n hears u n He loves it when u talk to Him. :D ask for the strength of the Lord to walk us through, empower n fill us with what we need, be in energy, physically emotionally mentally ;) remember nothing is too small tt God will ignore n nothing's too great tt He can't handle, will keep ya in prayer my dear! ;)
1Peter5:7 - Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

into your hands
i commit again
with all I am
for you

you hold my world
in the palm of your hand
and I'm yours forever

Jesus I believe in you
Jesus I belong to you
you're the reason that I live
the reason that I sing
with all I am

I'll walk with you
wherever you go
through tears and joy
I'll trust in you

and I will live
in all of your ways and
your promises forever
I will worship I will worship you forever

Hey Shuying, nice to see that u have been here. well yeah i went back for 2 wks and now i am back here in aus again. well dun despair, think u are seriously caught up with so many things that u are not able to cope well with both ur spiritual and social(?) life? well dun worrie all things will fall into place soon.
Everything seems to be a haze for me too. wonder if i am going to pull myself out of it too. but i live everyday without worrying. cuz i noe He is there to take care of us. And i believe u have a stronger faith than i do . so hang in there k?

Take care alright? dun worrie. and leave everything up to Him. dun be afraid.

hey u guys!
dont know whether any of u still check this journal out. well. decided to update it anyway. been very out of touch with all of u. hols was a crazy time for me. had lots of hall activities. didnt get to rest much. and now sch has started with me being more tired then ever. sigh. 4 months to go till a 3 month break. anyway/ was just browsing thru wen's blog earlier on and found out that u came back during the hols? made me realise that yup. really havent been making the effort to keep in touch with u all.
life's been turning upside down since i started sch. every bit of me. even the spiritual me. drawing away from God. i can feel it. didnt end up going for youth service again today.
need someone to pull me back..

shu-ying

wow. finally. two written entries aft so long. but really glad to see u guys writing stuff down. well. its so weird. thou we have the latest technology, we can't seem to communicate that well. but its alright. i understand that u guys are really busy


Anw i just finished my exams, having a two wks break then the new semester starts again. yeah its fast eh. i have been here for nearly four months. the picture of u guys sending me off at the airport is still fresh in my mind.


Nothing much in my life actually. Shuying i am kinda in the same situation as u. i am close to this guy called lionel but he is attached. but yeah maybe ur situation is better cuz Lionel is very attached to his gf. so yeah. trying to get thots sorted out and all. everything is getting fine. just at times. i have this spur of emotion "breakouts". but yeah everything is all good. :) hope u will be able to solve ur prob soon yeah?


Hmmm.. yeah think there isn;t much to say for me. cuz everything is just the same. and guys, i will prob return next year june. i really hope i can catch the earliest flight back aft my exams yeaH? haha can't wait to see u guys.. 8 more mths to go.. and i am counting down...

Wendy

hey princesses!

yeah shuying, i totally agree wif u tt this blog's getting quiet and everyone seems to be outta touch wif each other...IT's BAD!! :x

recently only met rox for awhile cos i needed to borrow a dress from her..unfortunately, she lent me a very very pretty black tube dress and i was too FAT in it!! YES...too fat, SiGh, fats are spilling form my tummy these days, my appetite's been fluctating and now i'm like on the high part...so been eating quite alot..geez...tell me about diEtiNg and ExeRciSiNg regime..i can't! haha always ends up in a bundle of failures

yup, now currently having my school hols but not really cos i nid ta go back school to do my projects and stuff..prolly gotta start working hard again after having one week of isolation form school..it's a difficult start again! i hate school cos i'm so detached form the people and everything's just superficial no matter how much u try to bring frinedship to a higher level of bonding...cos it doesn't work when u're the only one trying to form closer friendships wif others and they're just like can't really be bothered or already v involved in their own cliques. Honestly...i hate it! maybe cos i'm isolated now in school...and its like nobody really cares! i don't stay in my clique of cos aaron and tt girl already...and i don't really trust the friends around. one cares quite alot, but i dunno is it cos the way guys talk or wad, sometimes i just dunno if he's like caring/ pissed off or wad...the other, i feel is hopeless, still hopelessly after that girl and i don't know if i can trust him...he doesn't really care a great deal anyway, cos he's concerned for tt gal...i guess if he had cared me even as a friend too, there'd be some sorta conflict (li yi shang de chong tu) going on. for one thing, i think he's silly and she's just unappreciative. kinda liek last time when noelle was head over heels wif shupin in sec sch, i can't really be bothered with him already.

tried fitting in with other pple but i can't..its not really that i can't make friends. i know i can, and i really can make it well, but it's jus a totally horribly distasteful feeling when u're kinda excluded out form your "clique" and when i try fitting in with others and this gal comes n tries to be nice to them too...and u just really hate the feeling and just give up on everything and just be the herMit residing in some mountain in a faraway land! plus its nv the same acceptance cos people haf already bonded unitl 3rd yr and u just chUp in like this! haiz...do u get what i mean?

shuyingz ---- i'm not trying to speak up for andrew or anything, but do forigve him for behaving this way ya? cos its the same when i see aaron...beleive you me, its difficult, esp when he noes liek u're around so many other guys...and close wif them. cos i know the feeling...esp whne i see him close frens wif tt girl ( and tt girl that i've mentioned so many times in the blog is all the same girl).. yup...forgive him, i think aaron forgave me many times. but i really can't help it. esp when i see him, and i see everything now like this way...sometimes i dun even think we're friends, and i dunno how to take steps to building the "friendship" or wadeva back again. it's like behind crushed to the pits and nv to be repatched again. and he's not helping to communicate too, i mean liek real communication. i totally absolutely HATE SUPERFICIALITy, why would i want/ need another superficial friend when i have SO MANY already...aren't those enough? why should our friendship that bult up to a relationship that ended back into a firnedship be not even worse than a superficial hi bye/ working and not caring about each others feelings thing...aRGh!

i gave him a sketch book that contains poems tt i wrote, sketches of him and me, and paintings and art n everything about him, God, friendship and all tt stuff for his bday...and also a tshirt. i hope it doesn't get chucked into a corner or land up in the bin kinda thing...my reason for doing this, its cos although i treat him very hostile in school and all, i still hold him dear to my heart and the precious moments that w shared can nv fade away...i wan it to be precious momnets...not meMories people recall or look back once in like dunno how long kinda thing...I really dOn't wanna bE a mEmoRy, altho i think hE's already dEcide tO mAke mE a mEmory iN hiS Life, yeah maybe once in a yr or afew yrs u dig up to remember.. :(

anyways...been busy wif my girlfriends these weeks...cos gotta fren taking O levels as a private student so i help her wif her work n stuff. cos she ain't form a well to do family and got lotsa roles in her family to play...like a babysitter cum housemaid cum daughter cum student cum eldest sister...i 've just been trying to share her loads and burdens so she cud better conc for studying her exams, if not...she can't study in future! yeaps, and she's one reallyreally nice girl. it's not only about her pleasnat personality, but her optimism and strength cos she really trusts God and puts her faith in Him, tt's really one area i think i totally lack! pray for me please. :|

annother of my really really close fren cum sister's suffering from lukeimia (sorry botu the spelling, i noe its the wrong one, but i dunno how to spell) yuPz...not at the chronic stage yet, but she's also gonig through a really really tough time! rough patch of her life, prayer and whateva i can do as a sister is all i can offer to help her! in your quiet time...pray for her oki?? been praying that she'd be a healing testimony to glorify God and touch others lives. She's really a colourful rainbow and i'm determined to step adn battle wif her till the rain is over and her colours shine for Jesus once again! Trusting and claiming God's Healing promises :)

yUpz....i noe rox's busy studying and having exams....JIAYOU ya girl!!! ;) we must go out soon!! call me when sMu's giving u a break okie! haha! i noe SMU's super xiong, but i beleive u can dO it!! :P

yiNgz : u also JIAYOU okiz!~ pray for God's wisdom to be upon u and His strength to be with u guiding u thru this period! haha btw dun get too clsoe wif only guy frens, not good, cos alot of support is needed form girlfrens too! and guys get easily mislead

wEn : my dear, im so so sorry tt i lost your letters...hais...always liek this. u noe your christmas cards still in my home? cos i always forget to give and blah blah...forgive me please! i'll kip praying for ya too okies! looking fwd to seeing u soooooooooooooooooN!!!!!!!!!!!! adn hearing your voice too!

pOk : eh girl, u reading this??? hahaha i miss u lei! everytime only hear u once in awhile cos of yr hair thing. i'm so sorry i cudn't help u get models...but i'll def support u on yr graduation and in ya hair school and all ya!

last of all...nv every forgetting to say dis line, I LOVE U PRINCESSES!

u all can go my peronsal blog...leave a msg at my comments after the blog entry or something whne u all free or wanna say something k? pw is princessdiary. hope to hear form u soon. my addy is http://sixthdec02.blogspot.com

hey girls!
this journal has been pretty quiet for far too long? my turn to update now. in lecture. but really cant bear to pay attention. super tired. sina.. drained. u name it. been soo soo busy with my hall stuff and my work and church and all. starting to feel burn out. been finished my hall stuff at like 12 plus 1 every night. dinner then sleep. then weekends all church stuff. so havent relaly been studying. quite bad. and exams are in 29 days. quite worried. but no motivation to study also. hope u all are doing betetr then me?
a lotta of things have been happening in my life. dont know where to begin. hehe
well. first of all. haven been talking to andrew. or rather he doesnt wanna talk to me. guess not for a while. he's still not over the relationship yet and ya he feels quite terrible everything after talking or seeing me. so he wants a break from me kinda thing. quite sad bout tat. coz like treat him as a very good friend. someone who knows me well. so kinda lost a friend totally kinda thing.
k lah. but luckily God really blessed me with quite a few good friends in hall. very close to this guy called jansen in hall. got a few more guys i'm quite close to. but closest to jansen. well ya. all my close friends are guys now. and i really mean every single one of them. not too good. even in church also.
but anyway. ya jansen's suppose to be attached. gf's studying in aus for 1 yr plus already. but recently things not going too well. but ya. thing is tat. at first. being close to jansen was a totally friend friend kinda thing. coz he's attached and all. but then recently. think tat he kinda likes me. k a bit bhb. but ya. making things quite complicated. dont really know wat to do also. coz got other complications. haha.
yup. basically. juggling super a lotta things now. pray for me ya? really need strength to carry on to the end of this sem. esp in my work. yupyup. shall tell u guys more then next time. will try to update soon again. but can predict tat i'll prob update again after my exams. hehe. btw my exams are from 3rd nov to 18th nov. when are ur exams? claud's one is this week or something right?
kk. u all take care ya? update more! think we're quite out of touch with each other. or at least i am. hehe. yupyup. miss u guys!
shu-ying

Yeah hello everybody.. hmm seems like everyone is MIAing.. due to diff reasons and all. i think we guys are so busy that we dun even have time for our own family members or even loved ones eh> yeah.. but oh well.. just wanna say that u guys are being missed by me.. and i really wish that u all are well, making use of the precious time tat we are provided with. :)

To mel: how's ur graduation thing coming along? are they still giving u probs? anw.. hope u will read this. .and give me a call soon k?

to shuying: are u still stressed? sigh.. i really hope u are not being faced with politics in ur com and all. cuz being a leader is not easy manz.. :) u noe i still rem when we were in sec sch, u wanted to be a prefect or leader in something.. i realise that.. u have actually fulfilled wat u wanted to be man.. so ur patience have paid off tremendouly.. i believe a large population of NTU students know u manz.. congrats!

to claudia: hmmm.. whenever i read ur blog, i sense that u really wanna get out of the miserable wld that u are in right now.. and i believe that u are already making changes to ur life so that u will be able to enjoy and live e life e way u want it to be. anw.. no matter wat.. just wanna say that.. do watever u think its best for urself.. and make the best out of the decisions u have made. smile claudia. i believe u haven't laughed wholeheartedly for a very long time. smile more.. and ur day will be better :)

to rox: wel well well. as i have said in my blog.. hope u are alright w wk and ur love life yeah.. thanks for sending me the pens .. really appreciate the effort and time and money. :)

that's all girls, u guys take care ok?

wen